"In the subject line I write: Urgent Matter. My heart accelerates. I type: Present resolution has not been found acceptable by both parties. I then revise: One of the parties has found the present resolution to be unacceptable. For your immediate action. Best, Noa. Another sip of water. Another drag. Send. That's it. It's sent. Done, over, behind me. Actually ahead of me. Shit. What have I done? How can I fall asleep when I'm waiting for a reply? And what if he never replies? What if he's asleep? And why am I like this?"